Wednesday, April 26, 2017

comfortable days

I could hardly understand why some people expected retiring days.In my mind of that time,it will be a terrible time for me,facing old and nothing interesting to do.
Slowly,I knew it was not because of age that changed many thoughts,sometimes it depends on whether your heart is tired or not,and many other reasons.
Now,cheap oakley sunglasses, I don't want to be bothered by any boring persons or things.Even I don't like to deal with any meaningless things.Many troubles are caused by humans,so I even reduce the times of contacting with others or chatting with outsiders.I like a heart as quiet as a lake.Never want to think of anyone of school at home.I think two persons' hearts can keep very close if they have the similar thoughts,not needing exchanging opinions too often,they will be very easy to understand each other,even a smile.If two meet together who have completely different minds,then they don't need talking at all.Because they won't say true words not from heart,just for pleasing each other.So heart to heart only happen on the same characters or the similar minds.
Regard my present days as retiring days.I should thank such a school for making me feel so relaxed.
HOMETIME is to enjoy myself,doing what I like.What is home?just to put lots of love into a house,then it becomes a home.
SCHOOLTIME is just like a place where I can give my rest heat to this society-to teach classes to students,then enrich life by reading.
RIDINGTIME is the time to do exercise,cheap jerseys, make myself more healthy.
EVENINGTIME is my favourite,to keep staying with family,chatting about anything,the most relaxing period before sleep.
Those are really like my retiring days.It's not a laziness but a kind of mindset.
Never say that I should do,or I have to do...it's such a society!Actually sometimes,we can make our own choices,to choose the ways of living which make us happier and more relaxed.

It's really a will of mine.

When asked about whether I wanted to transfer my job to a nearer school.I said that I perfered a place that was free to work,cheap replica oakleys, and had less pressure.It seems that I said out a school's all advantages.But now I have decided to give up such a will.Just because I can't waste more money on me,it should be made use for son in the future.Even though I imagined so much if I went to that school to teachat the beginning.I calmed down at last.
Just because too many wills of mine could come true since young with the help of father,I have thought evetything easy.Now,he is gone,I should learn to suffer.
I have changed my work place several times.Maybe,I am a person easy to get tired of a place for long.In fact,how I wish to teach a higher level English and face older students.These days,I have often thought how funny the life is,the school I like most now is the one that I could completely choose to enter after my graduation.Too many things can come back,however,we can't hold it already.
At this moment,wholesale nfl jerseys, I really realize how great money is!It can satisfy most of my wants.It can take me to wherever I want to live.hh,but maybe I won't have the same mindset to face life once it happens at that time.
Never mind,now is not bad yet.Although I have lost interests in the things around me,I still have a group of lovely students to face happily,and lots of free time at work to do my favourite things.Just like husband's saying,we should learn to be content.Actually,I know it.It is not like each time I'm attracted by pretty clothes,all of them got to my hands at last.I can't make all wishes come true regardless of paying,now,I am not alone,but a mom.
This chance is passing,then never back.Say goodbye with a little pity.Son's dreams are just mine,to help him to make it is my great pleasure,thinking of this,I am so cheered!

But what extra things should I do during son's college time in the future?I have had a plan,cheap nfl hats, I will have a try,to earn money.Besides teaching,can I earn some more money by doing other things.To open a small shop is always my another will.Come on,baby,mom will try as you do.

hotting days

Such hot days make nobody think it is just nearly Children's Day.
Hotting days,cheap nfl jerseys, think about some to calm ourselves down.
I just knew that Haizi was a man from the Internet.From his poem which I love best,I had thought he was a woman.How to face a earthly world with a pure heart,which was his painful struggle in his life.
I can't always understand why some people choose death instead of living bravely.How painful were they?Or they originally thought death is one's perfect end?
Nobody can give an exact answer,because we can't have the feelings facing the same things or different experiences.Different people with different inner world and nature will result in differently.
Even so,each of us live on the earth with same duties,for family,for society,for those we love or those who need us.In a word,we aren't living just for ourselves.The existence of us is related to the happiness of those who love us.We must live well,cheap snapbacks, learn to be brave to accept all what fate gives us.No matter they are good or bad,the only what they can bring us is to be stronger.

Friday, April 21, 2017

Act life

Really tired of so much.Hard to believe more people,most uncertain.I will feel very bored to smile at those I don't like at all.Maybe this is the very reason that I love home more and more.Sometimes I think my the same terrible,nfl jerseys cheap, as long as doing something others are doing.A bit mad in heart indeed!I just wanna do what I like,although possibly thought strange. Sometimes,I ask myself:Must we say hello when we see each other?Must we show others a good friend-circle to mean our kindness and make use of each other later?When someone leaves us,must we cry to show how deep our affection is?In work,must we try our all efforts to tell all the people we are the most capable?No matter how sad or happy,must we encourage ourself with smiles?I think it is better to smile when being happy,and not to force yourself to do that while being unhappy.However,how much have we done and said even would make ourself feel awful.The only reply to ourself is that we are in society,we should adapt to everything.In fact,we often feel troubled.Not for being a special person,just to make ourselves ease.We also need to try.
I really hate all inherent modes,which makes me living more boring world.Even I dislike to get close to say anything,because of hate the moment of saying useless words.I prefer to be alone or do what I like.Even hate to communicate with others,which I think it a time-wasting.Actually I know more than them,and understand deeper.Each person has different ways of happiness,merely,cheap hats, I only care what arises from true heart,which can make me really happy.So precious they are in such a flashy world.
When you say love to me,I feel it true to your heart.Years later do I realise all affections will change.
When students tell me they love me so much,I feel so happy and think I am the only in their eyes.Months later,I find they say the same words to other teachers,too.
Something is there at this moment,but gone later.
Let it fly!Nothing or nobody belongs to us forever.Too much will bring us burden.
All above is not so important,because it is just a joke,something can be proved by time and hidden in deep heart is what I need.
However,cheap nfl jerseys, I never fear loss.I hope I can go back to me of nature.No liking hearing or seeing anything around me.To feel life instead of acting life.

Not because you are not good enough.

One day in the past,you got to know some people,cheap jerseys, they seemed to get close to you.You replied to communicate with them with your true heart.And thought they would be as sincere as you were to them,nothing could stop such a "lasting" friendship.You were wrong because you mistook it as friendship,in fact,they were merely false,a trade.They were not what they seemed to be,but a yourself-deception.Remembering a word from someone who I thought true to me,"Don't be too careful to others."
The most terrible thing is that someone is falsely good to you instead of being bad to you frankly.I never fear someone to be bad to me,because I like truth.Everything has two sides,cheap Oakley sunglasses, when you lost other's love,you will be more relaxed and live more freely,nobody to think more about,nothing to care more about.You can close your eyes and ears to live as you like.You needn't try to smile at  those "kind" faces,actually with a mask,to please them all the time.When you think the world is not so nice as before,you become maturer in heart.although we still try to keep thinking there is niceness,and there is true love.We hold such a firm belief and learn to run ahead endlessly.
Thank those getting far from me,who let me know true friendship is so precious that not anyone can have.And you aren't originally the same kind.All the things happening to me meant me a silly person.However,I won't change any of my belief.My life will be purer without those falseness.I can't change my liking,cheap nfl hats, pureness.Without it,I will think I am in the dirt.And I am not really good at acting.
Not because of you are not good enough,but you see this world too simply.
You suddenly smile while thinking of those,you needn't waste time and energy to face those people,you will never be cheated again by them,you needn't to care anything of theirs...really a good thing!
Go to hell,so-call friend-energy union,
Go to hell,so-called adapt to everything including good and bad,only to make me think myself awful.
Go to hell,so-called false kindness,I try to be myself.Without help,maybe I will need to solve some problems by myself,but happier without any burden in heart.
Say a lasting bye to you!
Besides my family,I can live much better without anyelse.
Yeah,the earth is turning around without anyone.
Life is just a process of seaching for happiness.
Happiness is only from true heart,replica oakley sunglasses, not a word,a photo or an act.
Got up so early this morning,listening to the birds' singing and music resounding.
I love such days.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

the acompaniment

  I was awake by the sounds of downfall, fitfully.
     The breeze with unique coolness through the window came into room, wape myself off sleepy, nfl jerseys cheap, a fresh breath coming in.
     The drops of rain drummed the ground one wave after another, it is the only sound of the whole universe outside. If you attentive enough, the echo of raindrop also caught your mind.
     With the lightning, matching the tempo of raining points, benefited by association together.
     Thunder chaoed the whole tempo, made itself being the least pleasant of the whole composition.
     That momentary impulse sent a picture on friendcycle, and got caught by my younger brother, alarmed to you`d better go back to sleep.
     My younger brother, even though we in different countries , but we still care each other and that will never change, cheap hats, that invisible tie between you and me, yes,i know.

Awake

One day, she saw a group of people in white clothes crying their eyes out in front of a pile of loess and burning dozens of paper money. The shadows of this group of people were so familiar to her. They should be family members. She felt so puzzled, nfl jerseys china, it wasn’t a day for sacrifice, what were these guys doing in the disorderly burying ground of mountain? Weren’t these guys her relatives and friends, brothers and sisters, nephews? It was really so strange, why did they come here and being so sad and heartbroken?
  “What’s wrong with you?”, she walked among them, “Who’s wrong? What’s going on?”. She asked loudly. What’s more strange, the relatives turned a blind eye to her enquiry and emergence, only crying endlessly.
  So she came to the grave and saw a small broken monument impressively carved with: Z guy died at day x ,month x, year x.
  Wasn’t this Z her name? She died a year ago? Ridiculous, really ridiculous. Wasn’t she stand right in front of the grave now? Was there someone else with the same name? There was indeed a person with the same name at the place of her grandmother decades of kilometers away, but with a different family name, and even though the person with the same name died, cheap Oakley sunglasses, how could her family members come here to mourn the person? What the hell was going on here? She walked near to her little sister and asked anxiously, “Tell me what’s going on. I’ve been living with you all the time and I’m right in the face of you. Who’s the Z guy sleeping in the grave?” Her little sister ignored her and seemed to not to see her and was still with tears cover her face.
  “A really health person, how could she die without much ado?”
  “The heaven isn’t fair, so young and has graduated from university only for a few years, and…”
  “If not because of the accident, now she is just in the prime of her life as a flower.”
  “The vehicle speed is so fast…”
  From their conversation in bits and pieces, she knew approximately they were talking about the traffic accident happened to her a year ago.
  If so, the person lay in the grave should be her. But she wasn’t die from the traffic accident. Then the speed was beyond 100 yards, when the vehicle run into her, she was in coma for a few seconds. But later didn’t she wake up? Didn’t she go to hospital? Didn’t she recover after stayed in the hospital for two days? And after that, she paid a visit to her customers. She also recalled how horrible the traffic accident was, how lucky she survived. And after that, she also did a lot of things, cheap nfl hats, ridiculous, non-ridiculous, repentant, non-repentant, reasonable, unreasonable, things deserve to do and not deserve to do. Were these things all her own imagination? All things including being in the hospital, people living together, the things she did? Were all the things of the year only her imagination?
  In fact, she died from the traffic accident, which meant she already died from the moment she was hit by the vehicle at day x, month x, year x. The people in the reality knew she passed away, her body was decomposed, her ashes was threw away. It was only in her consciousness that she was going to be sent to the hospital and would recover after staying in the hospital for a few days, would pay visit to her customers, and all the related things.
  It’s possible in physics. There are two necessary conditions about the existence of things, one is time, the other is space. The world is composed by numerous changing space times. The space time you lived originally is the so-called reality. The people in reality is walking according to the rules of existed  space time. There is more than one space time. If you are engulfed by another black hole, on the other end of black hole, is there another space time totally different? The world is illusory originally, who will be certain the space time he/she is living in is reality space time or another totally different space time?
  So she wasn’t belong to the space time she existed originally, replica oakley sunglasses, she died in the space time of reality. People knew she was inexistent. Suddenly she was awake…

Sunday, April 16, 2017

The National Day

  Today, it's the first day after national holiday. That means everything will go back to normal. The raining has lasted three-day at the beginning of national day, so we had to stay at home instead of going out. It's also a good method for reuniting with family, meanwhile,cheap oakley sunglasses, taking this opportunity, I watched a whole TV series, which was very popular on the internet recently. Maybe, the reason why I'm willing to see this kind of soap operas because of bad weather outside. Fortunately, the terrible weather didn't keep on going. On the fourth day, we finally can enjoy the sunshine outside, we didn't choose to go on a short trip this time, just spending two-day with kids in amusement park, if we didn't care too many people, it will be a good practice for promoting relationship with my little son. But, it seems that it's impossible to enjoy too much happiness especially among public holidays. Because, under this circumstance, the feeling of happiness was easy to spoil by crowded people. So if you didn't have enough patience, the amusement park wasn't a good place to relax.
   As to the rest of two days, we gone to super market to buy some necessaries and enjoyed some local cuisine with friends. In a word,cheap nfl jerseys, this was a not bad for the national day this year. The following things we should do was to involve in routine quickly.

put it down

   Put it down, three short words, releasing me from the stubborn takes over a year.
    I once thought consciousness-prevention, suppression,wholesale jerseys, controlling is the way to diminish away and one day you will be healed.
    Acutually, does not work, the problem veiled. You never know which could manage to trigger the illusion back to track on the road it could be a single road sign or a lyric, simply and purely
    But one day, a unintentional behaviour might incidentally end up disaster, not complex as your thought, but you know clearly that it is gone. It is gone with your unwillingness which had been lingering tied tightly round your neck.
    I enjoy that moment, being unburdensome and relaxed. I acknowledge the following void not good feeling, cheap mlb hats, but it should be the end.
   Hope, i will meet a guy, the same style hope it works.

Mobike in the city

Mobike is not the new thing in Beijing now, after check the internet, since this year it is the second city of Beijing can see Mobike everywhere in the street, the first city is Shanghai I don’t know when there were. But for me it is really a new thing I just know it these days.
Frankly speaking I don’t like drive to somewhere,cheap jerseys, but sometime I have no any other choice for the daily issues, even go the market for fruits or vegetables, for the heavy shopping bags I have to drive and hardly find the parking base or far away walking way, in fact walking has the half way to the home
Since the last week I went out with my daughter, we saw a bike on the corner of street; she told me this is the mobike, one hour for one yuan only, you can take to the anywhere you want and no need return to the original place that’s the common sense,cheap snapback hats, surely I still have a lot of questions gona ask how to play with it, if I take to my home for my own or broken it by careless and nobody knows who did. My daughter is laugh at me and said my dear mom, everybody in the world is smart than you. Let me show you how to use it and tell you in details, I know she suffer her patient to say.
I believe it is the young generation period, I would like to learn new things, so I like be a student to listen, Please down load App first in the mobile, to register the nick name like other App, pay the deposit 299 for the first payment, before you go to check APP where has the bike near your location, swapping the Pin on the bike for open the key, and after finishing the trip you may close the key manually, the mean the stop the payment hourly, sounds it is really easy and reasonable price. Mobike is really convenience for the citizen, I will like it very much for sure,fake oakley sunglasses, I may have to try one time for my blog I thought, I took the picture and happy stay with my daughter, every time I may know the thing from her which I never know before.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

I am not that smart

If you think you are born inferior, then I am gonna tell you: "Shut up, you are not, please change your mind.”

I worked in a state-run company
The time I worked in a state-run company in ShangHai, I was not busy at all, so I had plenty of free time.

Most of the time, when I tried to learn English, a few ladies entered into my office with sarcastic voice: “ Wow, you studied so hard, I have never studied as hard as you,cheap nfl hats, what's for? You wanna leave the company?"

I knew one girl whose Dad had very close relationship with the manager so that she’s got the chance to take 2 days off with paid salary and  attended a course which was paid by the company as well.

But she’s trying to mock me who was not fortunate enough to get 2 days’ free lessons.

The other ladies would be more than happy if I gossipped with them all day except I couldn't do my own study.

Smart kids
I used to hear stories regarding some super smart students who only spent time doing assignments at home.

Conversely, they pretended not study at all in the school because they wanna show off that they were born of genius, they could still get the best results in the class without putting any effort,cheap oakley sunglasses, how smart they were!!!

I used to be fooled by those smart ones, I told myself: why I was so stupid, how clever they were, I was hopeless.

What a pity, no one ever told me that I could become better by spending more time on what I was learning.

Completed Uni degree in Australia
After many years, when I was the only one in the class who received study excellent scholarship from Latrobe Uni and after I completed Uni degree in Australia, I confirmed myself: No, absolutely, I was not as stupid as what I supposed to be.

I am excellent!! I can do anything as long as I have interests in it.

We all have talents and strengths in some way, which is better than anyone else.

If we put huge efforts on what we really really like, we will be the outstanding ones one day.

Anthony Robbins
Anthony Robbins, who hasn’t got life coach certification with only high school education background, but he’s the most successful one in the world for writing best-selling self-help books and being the most sought after life coach in the US.

Yes, we can’t deny he’s a gifted public speaker, a bestselling author and an outstanding life coach.

His associates admired him very much: “How lucky you are, you are a genius with such an ‘innate’ talent.”

Anthony Robbins replied to them that he didn't get a life coach certificate, but he has read over 700 books, he has been to as many seminars as he could and he also listened to the tapes at home.

In his seminar, when students asked him how long did it take to become an excellent public speaker, the following was what Anthony Robbins said:

In my organization, someone can have 48 public speaking a year,cheap jerseys, I can finish it within 2 weeks, so within 2 months, I will have 2 years’ experience. Within 1 year, I will have a decade’s experience.
-- Anthony Robbins


My Experience in learning English
Some people asked me how to improve English as a second language, then I would like to ask the same question as what Anthony did.

How many hours you have been spending on learning English per day?

At the end of 1990s, after 10 years' struggling, finally, I quit the job in a state- run company.

While I was taking care of my daughter and doing housework, I almost spent more than 10 hours a day in looking up dictionaries for heaps of unfamiliar words from the textbooks and then memorizing the vocabularies and phrases, listening to the tape record in the library, practicing speaking English with friends until one day I lost my voice in an oral English exam.

Obtained an English Diploma in Shanghai

Eventually, I gained self-confidence as I passed the self-taught English exams and obtained an English diploma from Shanghai Foreign Language Uni in 3  years’ time.


I have got through from the darkest moment, after that, eveything went very well and good luck came to me.


For the past 30 years, my life was very tough, how many times I have failed, without making a big decision and keeping persistency and determine, probably, I will still work in that state-run company the whole of my life like most of the others in my age.



I don’t think I will be qualified to be an overseas student in my 30s without spending 10 years in learning English by myself and studied really really hard.


You can achieve your dream

Therefore, please don’t let me know that you are not as smart as someone else.


If you wanna reach a certain level, please let me know how many hours per day you have been spending.


If a dumb student like me can achieve a 10-year dream, I can’t tell why you can’t do it?

Friendship

As time gone, we cannot avoid losing old friends and making new friends in our life. In my expectation, I have confidence that some old friends will always in my mind and we should maintain our friendship forever. But it turn out to be an unsatisfactory result. Everybody is busy nowadays, we use of time on working and study, no matter how busy you are,cheap replica oakleys, I think it is not a difficult thing to spare some time to reply a short message, only one minute is ok for message responding, right ?  

sometimes I cannot figure out some friendship fade away year by year. I do not know exactly why everything has been change. Maybe I care about others too much. I just want to express that we should learn to treasure the genuine friends in our life. True friends will respect you and support you anytime. Although you will not keep in touch with each other every day. But your hearts are always connects together. In fact, wholesale nfl jerseys, some friends become richer than I am , they keep distance from me. What is going on ? I will turn a deaf ear to the news about those friends who gave up our friendship. What is the point of caring about them as they do not care about you at all?

I should not keep myself in frustration status for a long time. It is really a pity that I lost some friends who I have known for over a decade. What a pity. I should have no option but to accept the fact. I have to be strong enough to grow up.

Little Angel

How time flies! My girl is 1.7 years old till now. I have not record something for her for a long long time, how lazy I am. I must express that the little girl is as naughty as she used to be. She is very active and curious about the world very much. My younger brother’s house finished decoration and my Mom is living with little angel in the new apartment. At first, cheap nfl jerseys, the girl is reluctant to move in, she can not figure out why everything is change, she thought that the new house is not the same as the old one. She hold the hand of my father and asked him to take her out , back to the old house.

As time gone, she get used to live in the new house now. After all, the living condition with the new house is much better than the previous rental house. And they are living our hometown, more convenient for everything. When we are eating meals, the girl require that she need to sit around the table as we do. She would like to be treated as an adult while eating. Sometimes I will ask her to pass me paper, she will do it immediately with good service attitude. Sometimes my old classmates will take some kids to play with him, at the moment she saw the little boy, she was very enthusiasm and pass her snacks to the boy. I am happy that she learn to share with others and so generous girl she turn out to be. I called back home yesterday, cheap snapbacks, and my Mom told me that the girl had a fever and she did not have appetite to eat. I hope she will recover ASAP.